Sunday, October 17, 2010

Back with a little of those Blog-rockin' beats...

It's been a few days since I posted anything. I sat down a couple of times with the intention of doing a little bloggin' but as I sat in front of this machine I felt completely empty. With the loss of my dog, I believe I needed to grieve and I know it will take more time to go through that process.
There is a Robert M. Pirsig quote that I keep going back to and  thinking about.
"If your mind is truly, profoundly stuck, then it might be much better off than when it was loaded with ideas"
I'm not sure I understand this completely but I've got some idea of what he may have meant. I think my mind was stuck this past week and I have certainly experienced it before quite often. Not being able to tattoo, or ride or do a bunch of other things that require the use of my left hand is forcing me to find things to do as I go through the healing process. It is hard not to think about those things I am missing right now and sometimes it makes me feel very stuck. I've often found myself in a spot where I may have been faced with an uncomfortable situation that I needed to deal with and my mind would race wildly with different possibilities on how I could face that with the least amount of discomfort. This injury has removed most possibilities of how I can deal with this particular situation. I need to listen to the doctor take care of my self and then go to therapy for the hand before I can get back to those things I miss. Time is the only thing that will help. I am still left with some discomfort and I know that sometimes there is no avoiding that. I expected to experience discomfort on the bike as the weather began to change. I knew those cold days would be tough riding through and probably leave me with an achy body. The physical aspect of discomfort is one element to deal with then the mind starts racing with thoughts like, "Oh it's so cold, my back hurts, my hands are stiff, my ears are frozen, why am I riding today, shit I have to stop for gas, I have to take my gloves off, and on and on and on...
These are the ideas that load my mind and are completely useless. They do not help me to remain present in anyway and they are just thoughts. Unless I am willing to take any action to relieve some of that discomfort there's really no point in allowing those ideas to float around. I certainly don't want to complain to anyone else either and make someone else suffer too!
I suppose for now I am profoundly stuck with this thought, I'm injured and I will heal...
I've got lots of things to embrace to get through this time and I'll keep bloggin' away to pass this time and as the finger heals and strengthens the motorcycle will also be on its way to shaping up.
I had quite a few people ask if I would ride again, the answer was easy to that. I've almost been hit crossing the street but that didn't make me stop crossing streets...
I've got a couple of pics to share and though I wish they were taken while riding the bike, it's important for me to remember to enjoy this great time of year broken finger and all.
Enjoy...
Jim

Nice morning
From the four wheeled cage
Penny riding shotgun
and goodnight...

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